So after 10 years of avoiding the problem of how bipolar is not something we should live with unmedicated I put my foot down. After talking to my own counselor I told Dan he is going to the hospital. He said no way under no circumstances. So bargaining began. He has now made an appointment to see a psychiatrist. Well he has an assessment anyways which is great! Goal for 2014 is to get him on meds. Its at the point now where he doesn't think he is crazy and that I am the problems. As if. Do I claim to be perfect? Of course not. I will admit to you that I have a problem admitting I am wrong. That has been a long time problem of mine. Probably from birth. haha! But I know I am the sane one in this relationship. I am fighting with every ounce of my being to be the sane one. This means making sure that I do things for me. I am completely consumed with doing things for my family to my very determinant.
What things do I do for myself you may ask? Step one is every morning I go to the basement bathroom with my phone. I use the bathroom and brush my teeth.This is sacred time and if you bother me it better be because of a fire or something of equal urgency. Step 2: as of a couple weeks ago I committed to go to the gym twice a week with girl friends from work. While there I shower. This saves on my water bill as well as makes it so I am uninterrupted. Double win. And step 3: once a month I volunteer at a near by food pantry. As the sole bread winner of my house I have to live off a lot of assistance and giving back is so essential to my very soul! So to any over work woman out there this is my recommendation for your sanity. Do a daily small easy thing. Do a weekly to 3 times weekly thing. And do a bigger monthly thing. My husband is also go about lettting me go out with friends. Its really hard for him to do the same. I truly wish it wasn't but this is just where he is in his illness right now.
I will stop there for now.
Till next time.
